eh...so for today, i am getting better! =D [i think, anyway ._.;;] in any case, school has picked up and i am SO NOT READY FOR FINALS! 8'D **shot** i'm screwed, you know? xD i am listening to Big B radio and they just played Fantasy by Jay Chou ._.;; i thought it would sound good, but it sounded bad. D= jeez...i wish they played better music. >.>;;

but anyway, my sister's birthday is coming up, so on monday, i went to go pick up a present for her. this blog is going to be about my fun adventure of wrapping her gift. xD! i spent a good 3-4 hours on wrapping it. it came out looking...well, i'll let you judge that for yourself. o_o;; ONTO THE FAKE CUT!

Eh...like i said, i went to the Santa Anita Mall to buy my sister's gift. to be honest, i had no idea what to get her. xD;; well, i did, but it was too expensive for my peasant life style. >_>lll it sucks being a poor college student that has no job. D; so when i went to visit EB Games, i saw what i could buy her! =D at first, i was going to buy her Kingdom Hearts 358/2, but then i chose something else, after consulting with my very adorable pro gamer. <3 =]


( ...SO ONTO THE WRAPPING CHAOS... )


all right, i'm hungry now, so i'm gonna go eat dinner. =] i hope you guys enjoyed this blog. 8D wasn't it different from my usual b!TChing? **laughs** if you guys got all the way down here, then thank you. =] because nobody reads my krap anyway

so it's sunday and i'm just procrastinating from my work. >_>;; it's a lot harder to be busy than i thought. there's not a lot to do to keep my mind off of things. i'm still irritated. or rather, more than usual ._. everything seems to be pissing me off to no end. >_>;; that fire alarm in the kitchen, too. it keeps going off for no reason whatsoever and its ear-piercing noise gets me so irritated that i want to rip it off. -_-+ i'm being unbelievably childish. u_u;; whatever happened to me going to that psychiatrist...? i don't wanna walk in there. -_- they're kinda annoying. they're not helping me. they're just making me talk. it's annoying. isn't their job to fix me? SO WHY THE HELL AM I NOT FIXED THEN, D@MN!T?

i have my physics hw sitting next to me. i'm suppose to go cook the rice right now or i'm not gonna be eating dinner. xD;; somehow, i'm still sitting on my @$$ in my chair sitting to bad music on the radio. ._.lll

recently i've watched up to bleach 231 in the anime. xD how weird of them to make the zanpakutou rebel against their masters! xD i was expecting Hyourinmaru [she's a girl, isn't she?] to be so beautiful, BUT WHY IS HYOURINMARU A GUY?! O_Olll and who would have thought Kyouraku's zanpakutou is such a pretty lady!? XD i have to say that Tobiume is really cute, though ._. and i don't even like her master. I thought Senbonzakura would be beautiful, SO WHY IS HE NOT ONLY UGLY, BUT HE DOESN'T HAVE A FACE?!? ;O wutta waste.

it takes forever to d/l one ep now, though. D= but i don't want to stream it, cause i can't really skip all the parts i want to without it freezing on me. >_> so i want to d/l it cause it was better quality, too, but it's TAKING FOREVER. wutta pain. -_-

I'M SO IRRITATED. it came out of no where, but it just did. i know the reason for it, and it's bugged me for a few months, BUT THAT'S WHAT I WAS TRYING TO DO THE WHOLE TIME, WASN'T IT?! D< I JUST READ BOOKS AND DID MY WORK TO KEEP MYSELF BUSY THE WHOLE TIME, SO WHY IS IT COMING BACK TO ME RIGHT NOW? I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER IT. IT'S PISSING ME OFF. ALL OF IT. EVERYTHING IS PISSING THE LIVING SH!T OUT OF ME.

and JEEZ, i figured time would take its toll and let me forget, so just WHAT THE KRAP IS THIS? why the krap am i remembering this?! do not tell me i'm friggin' hallucinating, d@mn!T, cause i sure as hell know i'm not! i'm not making things up nor am i being a super jerk/paranoid/sensitive. D< i'm so irritated. IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME, THEN JUST SAY IT. DON'T GO SPREADING IT TO OTHER PEOPLE SO THEY START HATING ME, TOO. I HATE UNDERHANDEED PEOPLE. DON'T F@CK WITH ME. FAVOURING PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE OF ONE LITTLE THING. IT AIN'T NOTHING, B!TCh! DON'T LET SOME LANGUAGE GET TO YOUR HEAD. SO FRIGGIN' BIASED! AUUUGGGH, IT MAKES ME SO MAD THAT I WANT TO JUST DELETE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. I WANT TO DO IT SO BADLY. [but then my Love will question me why and my Love is the last person i want to worry >_>;;]

argh, too bad it's in the middle of the night right now. >_>lll i can't just call my Love and ask them to calm me down or something D= that'd be so awfully selfish of me [AS IF I NEED A REMINDER OF THAT.]

ARGH, I'M SO MAD. I REALLY WANT TO PUSH THEM OFF A CLIFF. IT'S FRIGGIN' DECEMBER. IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE THAT 'HAPPY HOLIDAY SPIRIT', SO WHY IS THIS GETTING TO ME NOW? I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER IT. I DON'T WANT TO SEE THEM. I DON'T WANT TO EVEN THINK ABOUT IT, SO WHY?! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I DON'T WANT IT, GAWDD@MN!T.

IT MAKES ME SICK TO THE STOMACH. PISS OFF. I WANT TO BREAK SOMETHING SO BAD [nobody is stopping me, but somebody is going to question just what the krap i did to my room if i trashed it ._. not to mention that i'd be the one cleaning it. i don't want to go through that trouble. >_>;;]

huh...i ended up getting so mad i typed it and ended up blogging ._. well, whatevers. doesn't say anything in detail. feel free to skip the rant.

: : news : : so like the title says, i'm at school ._.;; in the second floor library, the place where people check their FB's. xD i generally like looking and exploring the south library [the old side with absolutely no windows], but i figured i would be late if i went there to look at stuff now. xD i have to get going before 11:50, cause that's when my friend gets out. until then, i'm on this computer blogging. ^^;;

just recently, reading novels has been my hobby ._.;; i generally don't like reading...or at least that's how it's been since elementary school. o_O;; and just all of a sudden, i've been reading insanely. the most recent book that i've read [and i must admit, i was extremely curious after i watched the movie that i got for my birthday] was the Twilight Saga. >_>;; all my friends have either said, "EWWW!!!" or "...ARE YOU INSANE???" or at least somewhere along those lines. >_>;; i've finally started reading again and people are asking me if i'm insane. i wonder why it is so hard to understand that i'm JUST TRYING TO FIND SOME SORT OF HOBBY TO GET MY MIND OFF OF THINGS AND JUST KILL TIME. >.>;; i finished the series, but i have to say that it was terrible. D= the series was not that great! why are girls so into it!? i'm utterly confused. >_>;; oh, and speaking of Twilight, New Moon is out today ._.;; since it's by a different director and stuff, i was thinking it might be better than the first one. [i want to watch it cause i like Peter Facinelli >.<;;] but i've seen the trailers and it just doesn't help if the main actor and actress aren't that great. D= i do like most of the supporting characters, though. xD i've realized that even after reading the books, i still don't like the main characters ._.;; i guess Edward and Bella just don't appeal to me. i like Alice [up to a point]. after i finished the last book, i realized i didn't like any of the characters anymore >_>;; the last book...just killed it. [AND REMINDED ME WHY I NEVER WANT TO GET MARRIED OR HAVE KIDS] rather...most of the books weren't tolerable, but i somehow got through it. o_o;; the first book was barely tolerable. i wanted to finish the series so i could find out if they both died. 8'D what a let down that they didn't! D'8

hm...after picking up reading for a hobby, i've read The Little Prince. ;A; it was such a sad book! i was tearing up after almost every chapter and by the last three chapters of the book, i was crying through it. D; it was so so sad that i had such a hard time reading it [tears welling up in your eyes and blurring your vision is not that easy to see through, ya'know? >_>;;]

Aside from reading, i do the usual homework amount ._.;; if anything, it's increased. i had my first speech last Tuesday for my HCOMM class and it certainly was difficult to deliver the speech. D= my mind was rationally calm, but my body was so jittery, jumpy, and SHAKY when it was up there. >_>;; my voice gave out, too. the night before my speech [or rather, the midnight of it] i was practicing my speech like MAD. >_>;; my voice was raw by the time i went to sleep and my throat was completely throbbing. orzlll it was awfully pathetic. i ended up with a B+ on it, though >.>;;

i started watching Bleach again after...i don't know how long. xD i skipped the two filler arcs [was it Bount and something else...?] but i wanted to hear Shinji's voice and everything! =D after all, i really do like him [aside from Hitsu, anyway ._.;;] i was completely disappointed, though! D= i thought Shinji's voice would be SOOOOO smooth and clear, but it turned out being Momoshiro's seiyuu! D; i mean, i don't have a problem with his voice, but i expected something a lot lighter or just...NOT SO DEEP. D; i have no problem with Sarugaki Hiyori's voice, though. i think it suits her pretty well. ._.;; she's so gangster, like always. xD i wonder if i proposed doing the Vizards for AX's cosplay if my group would let me ._.;; i'm pretty sure we don't have enough people [i mean, we have 4 and they have...like, 7.] but if we just do the ones that stand out [Shinji, Hiyori, that girl with the jump suit and that other girl with the glasses in a uniform], isn't that enough? o.0;; even though we said we don't want to do an overrated series or anything, it's so difficult to choose a non-overrated series, cosplay it, pull it off as being the best and stuff, and still enjoy it is pretty hard. D= it's hard to find a good series. we've been asked to do Vocaloid, but we don't want to do it, since none of us are into it ._.;; we can't think of a single series we want to do. >_>;; i was thinking of classics, like Rurouni Kenshin, but which group are we going to do? o.0;; Juppongatana? XD! I would totally love that, but the two characters that i like the most of Soujiro and Kamatari. nobody else would want to do any of the other group members, as far as i'm concerned. XD! i mean, who can pull off the rest of the freaks [and no, Usui, you're STILL NOT COOL. D=] and nobody is tall enough to do Saitou in our group. if we did the main good guys, i guess we'd have Kaoru, Kenshin, Megumi and Yahiko...but...i don't think we want to ._.;; and if we chose the Oniwabanshu [Misao's version] then we might have enough people...but uh...we'd only have three of their group members >_>;; who wants to do Okina, anyway, right?

I also proposed Rose of Versailles, because it's a classic, but one of my group members told me it wasn't popular in America. >_>;; i forgot about that factor when i was thinking of cosplays. orzlll after thinking of classics, i went and said, "SAILOR MOON!" and the same group member that shot down Rose of Versailles said, "I'M GONNA SHOOT YOU." xD!!! and then i went and said things like Tsubasa Chronicles and stuff. >_>;; of course we're not gonna do that. we were going to bring back Code Geass, because we had to drop it one year, but that same group member [jeez, she's so picky!] said she doesn't like it and that it was the boringest thing that she's ever watched [next to Gintama, anyway ._.;;] i've already mentioned that we might redo Hetalia, but with different characters and obviously different costumes [i hear Austrian Succession and Nordics are the closest right now], but i did mention doing Yakitate!! Japan. XD! Our Azuma ran off, but i was thinking that we could just substitute her with one of our members ._.;; I don't mind doing Azuma [my first choice was Shigeru], but i don't mind if we get another one of our members to do Shigeru. ^^;; i already see one of our members doing Tsukino. XD! somehow, she just fits the role. o_o;; i'm taller than her, though.

Our group members started watching the newest animes [of course we read the summaries and look at what they wear first] in order to get some ideas. >_> 07-GHOST was one of the series [i still haven't watched it yet], but we've considered it. >_>;; just cause we really like the uniforms [AND I LOVE THE VA'S THEY USE]. i saw another series that came out with white uniforms and i don't think it's a bad series [i haven't read the summary or watched it, since it's coming out winter 2009], but the uniforms don't seem so bad. xD all of us want to do guys, though one of our members do not mind doing a girl [most of the time, she is a girl...cause she has the bust for it. >_>;;] the only one on our list right now is Soul Eater. I haven't read or watched it in a LONG time, cause it started getting bad. D= Our list of characters came out [for me anyway] was Crona and Soul. >_>;; we haven't done most of the costume yet, but we don't want to drop it since we have the materials for it, either. the other one from Soul Eater that i was suppose to do was Patti, cause my other group member was suppose to be Liz [we look alike] and my friend said she wanted to do Death the Kid. XD she hasn't done Death the Kid, yet, so we don't know when we're doing Liz and Patti. ._.;; i'm utterly confused as to which series we want to cosplay. our dead line to choose a series is in march.

speaking of cosplay, we're holding a winter Hetalia photoshoot, a joint meet with one of the England's that i met and get along with. xD we don't know where it is yet or when it is [we have to speak with EVERYBODY...which is a lot], but it's tentatively set for the winter intersession, cause nobody will be missing school or anything [hopefully, anyway ._.;;]. most of them are in high school, anyway >3> i wish i was sorta still in HS. D= ...kinda, not really >_>;; i get a lot more freedom in college than i do in HS. there's WAYYYY less drama, too. xD doesn't change that i have no social life around here, though. XD *laughs*

all right, it's about time i logged out. >_>;; it's 10 minutes till 11:50am, but i gotta get off the computer and walk to that class. i don't know when the next time i check LJ, but i'm sure to check it more often than FB. ._.;; **don't want to remember, don't want to remember** for the most part, i'll be offline. i do check my e-mails [when they're important, anyway], but the sure way to reach me is always the phone ._.;; if it's just THAT dire, anyway. i won't be online for a long time. i think another 8 days and i'll be back. [maybe] i haven't decided yet.